This line from Fun.'s We Are Young reminds me of what this blog WAS all about. I remember when I was still blogging under the idea of jotting down intoxicated driven adventures under the starry sky. How I've grown! I think what's amazing is that this blog continues to grow with me despite everything. From blogging about
"him" to jotting down about my food adventures, this is the one thing that's been constant in my life.
I often wonder if you guys notice it too... Do you notice how everyone's changed? Do you notice how everyone acts in cycles? Do you even notice the difference between a life altering post to a normal "created due to boredom' one?
Most importantly, do you notice how YOU'VE changed?
Thus, I decided to create the Drinks and Subtle Things Challenge. It's simple really. Just re-read and post three major ones you've published before. Then think of the things you know now that you wish you knew then. Think of what you've missed and what the whole thing taught you during that time. This way, at least you get to appreciate where you stand (or sit while typing) right now.
Here's mine.
1.)
Another Wasted Outfit (link)
I like to think that this post started it all. Prior to this post, it was just snippets of what I've learned, how I could relate quotes and minor details that I could share with a random stranger and not feel anything about it. Then for some unknown reason, I started writing a post about how I felt. I started to look deep inside me and write about what other people think is plain crazy. Then it made sense to me because I understood that only by writing about something that truly comes from within me could I ever be considered as an acceptable writer. Even up to this day, I think this is my best post ever.
Something I wish I knew then: He's an ass. He will always be one to you. Not because he's generally an ass but simply because you are not as special as you thought. Only when you it is right will it be right. Don't force yourself and accept the truth. You were but a fleeting fancy and that's okay. Marianne had her Willoughby before she had her Col. Brandon.
2.)
Cuddle. (link)
At the end of the day, it would be nice to have someone to talk to. Someone to share how your day went and how things have been. At the end of the day, despite everything, it would be nice to be with someone who wants to be with you. However, there are some things you can never ever force. He may never want you the same way you want him. He may never want to hold you the same way you want to hold him and this will just frustrate you.
Something I wish I knew then: There's a reason why you're blogging about your frustrations, kid. There's a reason why you're frustrated so forget about it. Honestly, it's not worth it.
3.) Sexist. (link)
This post is one of my most "rational" ones ever and I believe that my arguments are quite sound. I guess this is a glimpse of how I will write in the future.
Something I wish I knew then: It will be always a loosing battle when it comes to "him" so don't even start. As the Princess of Wales once said: "There is dignity in silence."
That's it! I hope you guys take the time to do this challenge (or read mine).
-S.Anxious.
