Staying Positive

"There will be little rubs and disappointments everywhere, and we are all apt to expect too much; but then, if one scheme of happiness fails, human nature turns to another; if the first calculation is wrong, we make a second better: we find comfort somewhere."

- Jane Austen (Mansfield Park)

I'd like to think that everyone has their quirks. We all have a bad side... a side in which we are at times (constantly) ashamed of. Comparable to Yin and Yang, we all have a good and bad side that makes us who we are. For example, I know that one of my better traits would be being proactive (which I got from 2 years of high school military training) and the worst part of me comes from my inner attention whore. Again, the good side and the bad.

Recently, I've been granted a special trip to Singapore (yet again) with people that I don't normally hang out in a personal level. Let's just say that I am grateful for getting to know them more... their good sides and their bad ones, both.

Why?

Simply because I believe that we should accept people as a whole. Their quirks might hit us from time to time and we might actually feel like throwing them off a building if we had a chance, but nevertheless, we are people and we need to interact. Besides, what is life without a little drama, eh?

Over the year (I feel so old as I type that phrase), I've also come to realize that the secret in getting to know people would be staying positive. Move over, Mr. Pessimism (which oddly enough, reminds me of a person I once considered a friend), life is all about the positive side of things.

I look forward to what people can do rather than what they cannot (blame my Catholic school upbringing). I look forward towards people's jokes, witty remarks and intelligent questions rather than judge them solely on a sarcastic remark, plain answers and incomprehensible statements. More importantly, I look forward to what they can offer me rather that what remains to their debt.

I do this without any bias, without expecting anything in return. In the end, I take great comfort in knowing that I always turn towards man's ability to be better.

Forgetting Disappointments,

Someone Anxious.

Looking forward to... I think.

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There's always something about family trips that you are not sure if you are looking forward to it or not. Even up to now, a couple of days away from my long awaited Family reunion/trip, I can't help but wonder if I really do want to spend time with my sister, my uncles and grandmother.

Ever since one of the worst Sundays my sister provided me during her last visit, I've been vigilant on keeping her on the down low about anything and everything that happens in my life. I've come to accept that we're just not that type of siblings. Yeah, I'd love to have a sister like Holly's but let's face it, my sister is just a whole different species of her own. The things that are important to her is rarely important to me (vice versa) and she can't see past my age.

The last time I shared something she ended up dismissing it and just simply ruined one fine Sunday I could have stayed done a 100 other different things. Instead, she makes me travel all the way to the south to tell me to quit my job (a midst a promotion of sorts) and look for a totally non-related job.

The thing that I hate the most about her (and my family in general) is that they never listen. They pretend to listen but they just simply nod, say yes and get mad when things don't go their way.

Am I excited to spend 5 whole days in my sister's living room? Not really.

Am I hoping that we'll have a better relationship out of this whole trip? Always.

Just in case, I'll bring my music player and drown my sorr

5 Things That Never Go As Planned

1.) Diets
Let's face it. We've all been there.

I always start my diet every Monday and by Wednesday, I would have come to the conclusion that it did not and never will go as planned.

I love food. I mean, I used to be a quantity eater (and now I am learning to be a quality eater) and even though I try my best to stop and just think of food as something I need and not something I want, I can't help it.

I love stuffing my face.

2.) Apartment Hunting
Yes. This never goes as planned as well.

Last Saturday, I dragged Holly to go apartment hunting with me. I've been dying to show her this apartment near the city. Budget wise, it was just right for the both of us and the location was ideal. It was just too good to be true.

No really, it was.

After staying in front of the building for 30 minutes and screaming the caretaker's name, we've decided to just go home. I realized that there are things that just don't push through despite the planning.

3.) Sleepovers
I honestly believe that the best way to enjoy sleepovers and to have the best flexible plan as possible.

I've been to a lot of sleepovers in my life (mostly after I left home and started living alone). But the best one I could recall would be ones where I just hung out, pig out and talk with my friends (not necessarily in that order but the pig out is really a must - see no.1).

Sleepovers should NEVER ever go as planned (it's just more fun that way - think, adventure!)

And I wouldn't have it any other way.

4.) Family Trips
I don't know about you guys but my family trips, although generally boring, never goes as planned.

For example, going to the north once, my family made reservations for room and we got a cottage instead. Then, instead of a weekend riding horses, I ended up watching my grandmother, mother and the rest of my family get riled up over mahjohng.

Sometimes, family trips don't go as planned but just like sleepovers, I like them that way. It helps me remember something about the trip and never ever take it for granted.

5.) Your Period.
I don't know about you, but I've never been a regular woman (ladies, are you with me?). Thus, every time I get my monthlies, I'm surprised as hell and never prepared. I can count the times when I had my bag with all my needs and trust me, my toiletries bag is never prepared as it should be.

How about you?

Someone Anxious

I'm all set.

This will be short.

Tomorrow I'm going for a trip. It's a cleansing thing of sorts at the same time, I'll be able to take photos for both zramphotography and diskcover.

Wish me luck!

Someone Anxious.