...what you used to want.
It's been a long time since I was able to think things through. I guess I think way too seriously at times and even the Certified Olympian told me that I seem to be subdued lately. Truth is, I've simply been thinking about things and once I'm through, life continues to give me something to think about.
There was a time when I was so sure of what I wanted. Then life happened and I realize that I'm better off somewhere else doing some other thing. I deluded myself into thinking that life is so much better this way. So it happens and I did what was expected of me.
Ever feel the same?
Ever felt that life all of a sudden reminds you of the things you thought you're over and you think: Maybe I want to still. I'm pretty sure I can be good at it.
That's what I've been thinking these past few days.
Getting that call today about something I always wanted to do but never thought I would be doing reminded me of what I wanted to pursue so much before
he happened. I'm thrilled and I want to do it more than anything (because it will give me a chance to do things for myself and my credibility) but at the same time I'm scared because doing things that you once wanted to pursue so badly is like a drug that can either heal you or break you.
I hope it won't break me.
Still pensive,
Someone Anxious.
