Deadline Over.

Today marks the end of me hoping for him to remember that we were supposed to go out. Oh, well. I really don't want to be that person that runs after him. Sick and tired of chasing pavements (Adele anyone?). I don't want to make him assume that I'm easy (even if I really am). Honestly, I just wanted to be special to him. I wanted to be the girl on top of his list, but what's the point? He probably has a long list of other girls wanting the same thing.

Bastard.

I hate that I love him.

I'll be celebrating his forgetfulness by getting a wax later and probably buying something nice for myself (new dress, maybe?). Not really sure if I can live with another sign from the universe that he's not in to me. I just hate feeling rejected like this. Well, it is better than being rejected outright.

Other news: Mr. Ex txted me last night. I thought he was going to ask if I'd like to have dinner again (right now, it doesn't really sound that bad) but as it turns out, he was just going to rant about his girlfriend. Ass. Honestly, can't he take a hint? Conversation topics with ex-girlfriends DOES NOT include current girlfriend/s or liaisons.. What's the point of catching up when you just repeat the same story all over again.

This is why I don't like telling him about my personal life anymore. It's either he becomes depressed because it's not him or he doesn't remember because (I honestly think) that he just cares about himself. Why is he still hung up on me? Because he will finally get what he always wanted. Did it ever occur to him about what I wanted? Right now, I'm beginning to think that I no longer want to communicate with him.

Will I honestly meet anyone worth it?

Someone Anxious.