Tuesday, March 1, 2011

It isn't over

Listening to Adele's Someone Like You and I super love this line:

"I had hoped you'd see my face,
And that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over"

This is exactly how I feel when it comes to him. I'm still hoping and despite the fact that there are others in line who would be willing to give me their liver if I asked them to at the end of the day... it's still him I want to be with.
Funny how "love" (and I use that term in the loosest sense) makes you forget the pain, embarrassment and heartaches this person caused you. Funny how you never thought you'd be one of those girls who are crazy for love. Then you meet this one person who you thought would be different and you end up in the streets crying/puking your heart out simply because you realized he didn't care to begin with. 

A few days ago, I met up with an old flame and it became his tipping point. Finally, he has decided to move on and I realized that will it be like that too? Will I have to endure years of loving someone who isn't there before I get over it?

Don't fret. I'm not planning to. Unlike this old flame of mine, I am okay with exploring a little more. I don't take my friends for granted and I follow their advice. Furthermore, I believe that there will be someone for me. It may be this person who I can't get over with or it could be someone I've never met yet. I have the ability to let the world around me take control and lead me to what I 'need' the most. 

There's also being single.

I honestly don't mind. 

Or do I?

Someone Anxious.

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