I believe in you, Romeo.

I'm coping so far.

Going man-less is not as tiring as I thought it would be although I'm back to my old romantic self hoping to be rescued by my prince.

Still, I'm not into it as before.

Which is good... i think.

Last night, we met up with an old friend and talked about tattoos. I always liked the idea of one but I'm not sure if I can stand the pain of getting one. We were talking about what type of tattoo they'd get and I realized that if I will get one that has text on it, I'd place this line from The Gaslight Anthem's song She Loves You:

"I believe in you, Romeo."

I don't know why, but it sounds like something I would say. I know I'm not Juliet, smoking by the window but for some unknown reason I feel as if I do believe in someone out there. I do believe in my Romeo, whoever he is.

Yes, I'm still going man-less, but I'm slowly returning to my old self... my real self.

Romeo, I'm just here. Maybe... someday... one day... it will be my day. :)

Still Waiting,
Someone Anxious.

Man-less Update: Name exercise

I've been doing this pretty cool mental exercise that allows me to forget him.

You see, I have this habit of saying his name out loud and every time I do, I just end up thinking about him. Now. In line with this whole conscious effort thing, every time I actually do say his name out loud,  I say all of my old flames' names.

It's a nice exercise to make me stop putting him on a pedestal of sorts.

Someone Anxious.

Someone Anxious goes Man-less.

Okay. It's been a long time and I have a lot on my plate. So many things have happened since my last post and I guess the title of this one explains it all.

Yes. I am going "man-less"

I am taking the conscious effort to focus on myself, my growth and all that jazz. This conscious effort also includes not thinking about romantic relationships with the opposite sex, not thinking about an ex or former lover and maybe reviving old flames with them and simply not putting love above everything else.

A friend pointed out to me once that I follow my heart over my mind most of the time and that's what gets me in trouble. I never thought I got it bad until I was looking for jobs online one day. Since finishing my degree, I've been looking for work and I realized that every thing that comes up, I think about him and if it is possible to meet him with this line of work. Really annoying.

So, from now on, I'm taking the man-less diet. Until when? Indefinitely. Yes. Indefinitely.I'm going man-less until I feel that I am capable of putting reason before love and that I am able to make decisions that won't include the chance of meeting him.

It's hard after years of self-conditioning.

Hopefully, I'll make it through alive.

Someone Anxious.