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It just so happened that I would rather spend time in this world not thinking about things I consider superficial. Like how much she's gained or how much he makes... I also like to spend my time feeling the sun against my skin instead of buying useless items of clothing that will eventually decay in my closet.
Whatever this vacation has taught me, it is that I have never been more lost to my family than I am now. That maybe, despite growing with them, I grew different (in their eyes, insensitive). The things that are really important to me are rarely important to them and now, more than ever, I've come to realize that the only thing we have in common in this world is time.
We all simply choose to spend time together despite the many differences, the annoyances and the insensitivity. We are but connected with something more vital than blood... and that is time.
Yes, I did have fun. I had a great time experiencing new things in a very different country. But again, the idea of living in such a place is so far off in my head. I'm too mischievous for such a country and I'm too lonely to start over again. What I hate the most is the force. The idea that people keep forcing me to do things that I am not inclined to do. I wonder, do they even know me enough to think about their suggestions? Or do they ask me to do things simply because it has worked for them?
Have I ever told you that I love the water? I'm a Pisces and all throughout my life, my grandmother has repeated again and again that I should love the water. Hell, that's only thing she's got right. I absolutely love the water.
Maybe it's wrong for me to say this but I guess I now understand why some simply drift apart.
Drifting,
S.Anxious.
