Bored.

I'm so bored out of my mind here at home that I think it would be best if I just didn't take those leaves in the first place.

For the first part, my Christmas day was quite exciting. I finally took my uncle and grandmother to this French-Mediterranean restaurant C.O and her sister took me a couple of months back. I'm so happy that they liked the Foie Gras. pasta. Ended up shopping my way through the mall. Bought new shoes, shirt and pants. This made me wonder why my style is so tomboy-ish. Honestly, I think this is my uncle's influence on me. I end up walking with him through the men's section even before I go to the female!

Yesterday was spent in bed. Slept all the way until 2 in the afternoon. Had a late lunch of Christmas leftovers (which I felt like I had enough of by now) and continued on to dreamland. Woke up for Paella and Lamb dinner (Thanks, Dad!). Went straight back to my apartment and watched T.V. through the night. Was so bored that I fell asleep by 10 pm.

Woke up today at around 6 and was surprisingly out of things to do.

I'm thinking of going in the city today to get my phone fixed (as it has decided never to unlock again) and buy some more toiletries along the way. I'm also thinking of probably staying and asking Janey if she's game for a sandwich dinner (which I hope she is because I'm totally out of my mind right now).

Bored,

S.A.

Of Gifts and Friends...

Christmas is one of the best Holidays for me. I love giving gifts to my friends, thinking about what I should give them and how special the gift should be.

This year, I decided to give my officemates items that reminded me of them. For my college friends, I decided to give them items that I think might help them through their hectic days. Frances got a GC for Starbucks (since she's the only person I really know from the group that drinks designer coffee). For the boys, the girls chipped in for ties and I honestly feel like that's a bit of an accomplishment.

For family members, I got them items that are a mixture of something I think they need or I know they want. Case and point, I got my sister some issues of Archie (since I know that they are still quite her favorite but would never ever splurge on the digests).

However, one of my most accomplished gift moments would be for my good friend the C.O. who is somehow like a sister to me. I believe that when we are thirsty for guidance and appreciation, water is more precious than blood and she has always proven that point in my life. I will be always grateful to her and that is why I decided to give her a gift that I felt like sisters are supposed to give to their older sisters during this specific time of their life.

For the Girls (Jackie, Janey and Holly), I have something quite special for them. I hope you guys are reading this. If you do, tell me when all of you are free. :)

Christmas is the time to give to those you deem special in your life. I am constantly amazed at how so many people are always there for me. Granted that I may never have been that "nice" or accommodating to them, I feel like at least, from my side, I let them know how much I care for them.

To all those celebrating this time of giving...

...Happy Holidays!

-Someone Anxious.

Time.

Whatever this vacation has taught me, it is that we choose how we spend our time in this world.

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It just so happened that I would rather spend time in this world not thinking about things I consider superficial. Like how much she's gained or how much he makes... I also like to spend my time feeling the sun against my skin instead of buying useless items of clothing that will eventually decay in my closet.

Whatever this vacation has taught me, it is that I have never been more lost to my family than I am now. That maybe, despite growing with them, I grew different (in their eyes, insensitive). The things that are really important to me are rarely important to them and now, more than ever, I've come to realize that the only thing we have in common in this world is time.

We all simply choose to spend time together despite the many differences, the annoyances and the insensitivity. We are but connected with something more vital than blood... and that is time.

Yes, I did have fun. I had a great time experiencing new things in a very different country. But again, the idea of living in such a place is so far off in my head. I'm too mischievous for such a country and I'm too lonely to start over again. What I hate the most is the force. The idea that people keep forcing me to do things that I am not inclined to do. I wonder, do they even know me enough to think about their suggestions? Or do they ask me to do things simply because it has worked for them?

Have I ever told you that I love the water? I'm a Pisces and all throughout my life, my grandmother has repeated again and again that I should love the water. Hell, that's only thing she's got right. I absolutely love the water.

Maybe it's wrong for me to say this but I guess I now understand why some simply drift apart.

Drifting,

S.Anxious.