"Why would I stand for disappointed looks? Fully grown but I'm on tender hooks..."
Camera Obscura, French Navy
Since I've been listening to Camera Obscura to keep myself positive, I came upon the term 'tenterhooks' which means to be uncertain and anxious about what is going to happen.
Somehow, that's how I feel about everyone these days.
I hate feeling like I'm being pushed and pulled into different directions all at the same time. Can people ever give me a break? I know that I have to consider a lot of other people when making decisions, but I just feel a little bit flustered with other people making them for me. What happened to 'you can do anything you want?'
People are so frustrating at times.
Including me.
I met up with an old college friend today and she told me that tearing up paper is a sign of sexual frustration. So we started tearing up our receipts into pieces. Yesterday, Janey asked me if I was having a relapse and I think I am. If I don't meet other people regularly, I tend to stare my phone and imagine what would it be like if I txted him. I know. I shouldn't. That is why I'm slapping myself already.
Anyway, I have a fully booked weekend ahead of me and a college friend spontaneously planned something so I have my mind occupied. I'm having a beer to celebrate surviving the week!
Cheers!
Someone Anxious.