“If you wait to do everything until you're sure it's right, you'll probably never do much of anything.”
-Win BordenOne of the few things I do while waiting for someone to answer my call would be searching for quotes. I'd read quotes for hours and hours until I know that the time to pack my things is near. Today, I came across this one and I felt like it was another sign from the universe to change a few things in my life.
I often pray for the courage to be better and while I may feel like a total coward at times, I know that there will come a time when I can say the things I would really like to say. I think it gets harder with age because we learn to fear so many things. We fear rejection, we fear when we insult others or we fear hurting someone. I would often think that it would be better if it was me who was hurt instead of involuntarily hurting others. Then again, the age of martyrdom is gone. Who am I kidding? Getting hurt is simply that... getting hurt.
Honestly, I'm tired of getting hurt, feeling disappointed or hoping for more. I'm tired of being cast aside, taken for granted or simply considered mediocre. I'm really glad Jackie and Janey took the time to make my weekend special. Things like those make me realize that at least, to them, I am worth the effort.
Oh, what to do? What to do when you can barely be you?
Pensive,
Someone Anxious.
