She's actually one of them.
I never really liked her because out of the millions of people I've met in my lifetime, she's the most manipulative of them all. I will never forget how she made me feel like a nobody or how she'd only talk to me when she found out that I had a gift for getting top scores in every test.
Out of everyone I ever knew, she's the person who always made me feel like I was not special in any sense. In a way, she always made me feel like I was alone in a crowded room. Yes. Every time I hear Jack's Mannequin's Dark Blue, I remember her and all the times she made me feel like shit.
You say she didn't mean it?
Honestly, I know she did. She thrives in knowing the dirt to say things that can harm you. I know. I experienced it. I don't live a holy life and I do a lot of things that to others might seem a little bit risky. I don't play the good girl drinking coke behind her parents' back. I am what I am and if I hide things, it is only because I know that people might get hurt knowing what I do/know. This is what she'll never have. I am what I am and at times I will cease to care only to realize that I should. I don't give a flying fuck if he laughs at me or his friends all know. I don't care. Honestly, I don't.
That's why I'll be what you'll always strive to be.
Someone Anxious
