Holly, Janey and Jackie met me last night after my talk in the university. I was a bit worn out after such a long day and I was glad they were able to wait up for me. I was having a cigarette while they were talking about their day and then Holly said hi to someone who passed by. It was short, a quick greeting that took only three seconds of her life. Didn't know the guy, didn't really think of him and didn't really bother to ask her who it is.
That same guy jumped off a hotel early today.
Mr. Webster would define intuition as the power or faculty of attaining to direct knowledge or cognition without evident rational thought and inference. In my head, intuition is some sort of magical power... an ability that makes you part of the X-Men because you can feel what is about to happen. In some way, intuition makes you a very cool fortune teller.
Holly's friend jumping off a hotel building is a reality check. There's no such thing as intuition. There's no magical ability that can help you help someone just because you know that there's something wrong. When I flicked my cigarette to the ground, squishing it with my heels, while Holly greeted hi... I did not feel anything and she told me that she didn't either.
It is sad because that despite wanting to feel that link between someone so we can help them, this reminds us that there is no link. To truly be connected to someone, he or she has to also connect with you. I think the real power we have is the choice to be open to someone... to anyone. Our great ability is the choice to allow (and at time to not allow) someone to connect with us.
I also believe that these connections are the ones that save us, make us better and allow us to grow emotionally, mentally and socially.
Hoping that I'm connecting with all of you (even if only Jackie, Janey and Holly are the only one's reading this blog). I'm glad that I have friends that I deeply connected to. I often hope that they feel the same way. As I said... I believe that these connections are the ones that save us... save me.
Someone Anxious.
