Testosterone.

Can I just say that I've never EVER been in a roomful of men like that... Honestly. I've never even hung out with so much guys all in one night.

Here's how it happened:

A week ago, Holly and I were hanging out at her place when she informed me that the Kid's brother will be throwing a surprise birthday party. Yes... yes... I know he has been sort of a (how should I phrase this?) bastard (for lack of a better term even though he really wasn't although sometimes I feel like he was) to me and our graduation celebration. Just so my other (nonexistent) readers would know, he's the one who often would make me feel rejected (not the same as the usual him, but I thought he was running second). I guess it was the way I wanted to see his place, his brother and just hang out that made me actually go. So last weekend, I slept over at Holly's and that Saturday we went to his place.

We were met by his brother and we went through the whole glad you guys are here, hurry, he's not yet here and it's good to see you too stage. Then we entered the house. To my surprise (although I did mention to Holly that this might happen - foreshadowing) the house was filled with young strapping men. Did I mention that he went to an all boys school? Yes, he did and all of his other female friends didn't go.

The ratio? Three women to approximately 20 men.Wow. Honestly, I've never really hung out with so many guys in my life. Yeah, I have guy friends but usually when I go out it would be me and my other female friends (Holly and Janey mostly)

Hanging out with them was easier than I thought. Surprising enough, I was myself despite the abundance of male testosterone. Normal self like when I went out with him a few weeks ago. I was completely just me.


The Kid was surprised and it was really nice to see him be himself. I liked the side of him that I got to hang out with. He was happy, normal, not paranoid and a whole lot of fun. He introduced us (girls) to all of his high school friends (guys) and his brother served us margaritas. Really great food made me wonder why he was so thin.

After a few drinks, a few sticks of menthols, some lewd jokes with the guys and a demonstration of how to drink beer in three gulps, some of the guests decided to go to the park nearby. It was fun, talking and hanging out by the slide. One of the guys I met during the party decided to join me in the slide and it was a bit awkward because it was like a slide sandwich. Here. Let me describe...

...At the end of the slide was their other friend (the man I dub as the Priest). I sat on top of the slide and I placed my leg forward so technically I was on the middle of the slide. It wasn't awkward yet until another friend of the Kid joined us and sat on top of the slide. He slowly slid down the slide and it became awkward because the Stripper's (what his friends call him/his now codename) crotch area was dangling right above my head.Told him he it was quite awkward and we both sort of laughed it off.

From afar, I saw the Kid having a sweet/movie-like moment with Holly and truth be told, I was fucking jealous. Yes, I still like the Kid. He's adorable but I stand by my decision. I want him to came back when he's older... when he's not scared of risks and adventures.

We ended the night with a hug and a short talent show with the Kid's puppy. It was fun and I had no regrets with going. I was also glad to meet so many people and just be myself at the same time. After all, free food and good drinks... what could be better, right?

Well... Holly told me yesterday that the Kid told her that the Stripper thought I was pretty.

It's a start :)

Someone Anxious.